She told me to stand, I did.

She told me to spin, I did that too.

Sit, she said, lay down, clap, jump, run in place, freeze, close your eyes, cover your mouth, open your eyes, blink, stop looking at me, stop moving, stop breathing.

I did everything she said because I didnt have a choice. I feel stupid. But im also hopeful. Even as she drags me around to do her bidding I cant help but want to be by her side regardless of if she makes me or not. Maybe I still have faith in her despite her thirst for control because deep down I know this is not the true her. She would never use this power on me on her own accord. I mean it was only a year ago when she laughed in disbelief after I presented the concern for the first time in years. And with that same smile I fell in love with she gave me the same reassurance she always did.

“I wouldnt even think about it.”

She said, but I suppose things change. I beleived cruelty did not exist in our relationship, now it does. I see it, I’ve experienced it but still I am stubborn, I cant believe that this is just how she is now. Its too absurd and improbable.

I am a man with the foresight of a god, I looked into our future multiple times. I watched our fates twist around each other in every life time, each connection bounded by love. And this life is no different. I know she still loves me. I can see it in her little spouts of counsciousness when she asks me to help her. When she sees our son and stutters.

She told me yesterday that shes scared. That she wants to go back to herself but theres something stopping her.

“My arms and mouth move on their own, that is not me being horrid I swear!” She cried in our bed.

I didnt know what to say so I just hugged her. I was angry from being controlled day in and day out but then she reminded me of who she was.

“Please taka, get this person out of my head.”

In all her demands she had never called me that. Not once. Whoever was controlling her, and subsequently me, didnt know the history behind that ncikname. Hearing her say it solidified my resolve.

Whatever is happening is not her fault, theres something I dont know something we cant see that is doing this to us. And for the sake of my wife I will fix it.

My family is no ones entertainment.